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Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004

Subject:Hey Fuckers...
Time:10:09 pm.
Mood: hungry.
I think everyone should hook it up like a tow-truck and head over to...

http://www.mtv.com/onair/mtv2/headbangers_ball/best_of_2004/

and vote for some of these videos a couple times...i know it is almost over, but every little bit counts...

36 Crazyfists - Blood Work
Chimaira - Powertrip
Killswitch Engage - the End of Heartache
MachineHead - Imperium
Slipknot - Duality

so vote...and vote...and then vote some more...cause there is no limit bitches...just like our own texas hold 'em...of videos...

chandler
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Tuesday, November 30th, 2004

Subject:blah bitches blah..
Time:12:59 am.
Mood: blah.
just thought i would share this link with everyone...

http://members.streetwise.com/goto.php?e=Josh.Chandler@gmail.com&d=musictoslayby

you just make playlists...10 songs per list...3 lists per week...rate others lists...they rate you...whoever has the highest rating at the end of each week gets a fuckin ipod...so rock on...pass it on...

josh
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Tuesday, November 16th, 2004

Subject:we will never be the same...same old songs on a brand new stereo...
Time:6:51 pm.
Mood: sick.
this is a post from the 5th of november to the 12th of november...this is a little intro so you are up to speed on the story...

FUNERAL for a FRIEND is a rock band from Wales (same spot as my friends in thelostprophets -- yes i seem to have a good connection with those welsh boys) FfaF is made up of Matt Davies -- Vocals, Gareth Davies -- Bass, Kris Roberts -- Guitar, Darren Smith -- Guitar, and Ryan Richards -- Drums. I first saw them last november when they opened for From Autumn To Ashes, Everytime I Die, and Cave In. They were on the Project Revolution tour (Linkin Park, Korn, The Used...) this past summer, where I saw them in Columbus and Cleveland. I talked to Matt and some of the guys for a while at the Columbus show and even got to hang out on their bus for a couple mins while I got my cd signed. Matt remembered me when I saw him at the Cleveland show, and we talked for a while. He drew the devil horns on my stomach cause i took my shirt off for them to sign. All the guys thought it was funny as hell, it rocked...i kept it on as long as I could...other notes...my favorite FfaF song is Moments Forever Faded which they never play live...and matt never lets the crowd have the mic to sing...

now flash forward to November 5th, 2004...

i got to the show in columbus and was just walkin around the venue waiting for the show to start. I saw Matt was doing merch so I went over to say hi and he just looked up...pointed at me...and said it's you...we talked for a while...he told me they haven't played Moments Forever Faded in like a year and a half, and told me there was really no chance the guys would all want to play it...darren's guitar messed up during the set, so while they were trying to fix it matt and kris did the only 1 guitar song, Revolution Is A Joke...It was really good...it was really rare to hear...after the show talked by the buses and then i left to rush (well as much as possible as it is about 2 hrs away) home and get some sleep for the cleveland show...

arrived to cleveland early and went over to see what was going on. matt was outside talking to Doug (FfaF's Tour Manager) and some other guy. Doug was going to look for some poster for me to put up in the venue and me and matt were talking with this random guy. well it turned out that random older gentleman was...TERRY fuckin DATE...Mr. Date is a producer who is doing the new FUNERAL cd and has done like all the Deftones cds, the Handsome cd, Pantera, and the list goes on...it was so amazing to shake that mans hand...went into the show and threw the few posters i had up...doug told the guys at the tour that i was his promo guy so if i needed to go in and out that I was allowed laminate or not...so that was rockin...thanks to my Kittie laminate i was able to hang out in the VIP area during FfaF and had a great view (the security guy just saw the all access at the bottom and that it was glittery like real laminates are supposed to be and just let me hang out)...the crowd was much more active at the show, which made me happy...the guys did a hell of a job and sounded much better then the previous night...after their set i met Craig (who is their manager over in the UK)...very cool guy, talked music bussiness for a little while...after i was done doing all my promo work as the show let out i came back in and just sat around waiting for everyone to get merch packed up and go hang out on the bus...went over to the gas station and bought some beer, once i got back i had a smoke with Gareth and we talked a bit and then we went back on the bus and drank away...it was pretty sweet...i got a good buzz, not really smashed....it was really amazing to party on a bus with rockstars..lol...i know that sounds so fuckin groupie...but fuck you...you're just jealous...

detroit was a shite drive...ended up staying at an ex's place and left for the show after getting some much needed food in my tummy...got to the show and went over to the bus...matt opened up and let me on...it was mostly matt, gareth and myself just bullshiting and then kris was about...and then the guys from instruction stopped by since they were in town and actually on an offday with their tour with Helmet. It was cool times...rocked out...left after the show so i could get home at a resonable time (3am) and get some much needed sleep in my nice comfortable bed...

monday...blah...tuesday...sick...drove to pitts to see Moments in Grace...missed them...sucked...weds...still sick...went to cleveland and got to see Moments in Grace...talked with them for a bit...left...slept...Thursday....

got off work at 5 and headed to pittsburgh...donnie gave me directions to the mall where FUNERAL was playing their instore show...got to the mall a couple hours early and realized just how small a hollister is, well in the concert venue regard. talked to doug and he said if anyone gave me or donnie and trouble about getting in to call him and he'd handle it...the show was FUCKING KILLER...so small...so loud....so great...maybe 50 kids tops...i was right by the front, behind all the hollister girls who got in first...in between the songs i yelled 'Moments Forever Faded" and Gareth looked at me and laughed, so I yelled it again...Matt says...into the mic mind you...'Shut up Josh' and laughed...and everyone in the store just looked at me...and it was awesome...then later in the set Matt leans forward and puts the mic right in my face for me to sing...he doesn't do that...he did it for me...it was even more awesome...lol...after they packed up and were out signing stuff for fans gareth just walked over to me and donnie and started talking to us...i told him i had brought Jager for us to drink and, to my dispair, found out they were just going back to the hotel and getting some much needed sleep...but he told me we'd definately drink up tomorrow after the show...

friday was full of sleep...then we went to the show...got there about 3 hrs early...hung up some posters...and once again, thanks to my Kittie laminate, got hooked up...we got free pizza and food cause we were 'with the tour' or so thought the girl who was running the event for the college it was at...i just walked in and out as i pleased...showing them my all access pass and them waving me through...the show was awesome...they changed the setlist up from the 4 prior shows...the crowd sucked...they were all just there for Taking Back Sunday...it made me sick...I won meet and greet passes from some gameshow rock'n'roll trivia thing i did...the shite catch was it was during Atreyu, which will get an entirely seperate post...so i was waiting and waiting...and asked myself why i am missing a band i like to meet a band i don't really like...so i left...and rocked out with atreyu...after the promo work was done me and donnie went back into the gym...i was talking to gareth and it turned out they had to rush off thanks to canada and all the damn grief that comes with crossing the border...he told me next time we'd drink up...and gave me his email address so we could stay in touch...said bye to him and matt as they were the only ones around...

went back to donnie's place...got pizza and that was about it...

so yea...it was a great 8 days...i am thinking about planning a trip out to Seattle where they are, ironically enough, recording the new cd...gonna talk to gareth about it...then go from there...

that was sorta long...it was a good time...and it was the shortened version...

i still think it was great how all those kids wanted to meet TBS and didn't and i was outside the dressing room listening to adam warmup and just told thier manager thanks for his time and left...i guess he was shocked i just walked away...fuck them...atreyu all the way...
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Tuesday, November 2nd, 2004

Subject:please please please please please...
Time:7:33 am.
Mood:just woke up and ready to nap.
let me devalue what's inside you...

I am not sure anyone who reads this cares, but Head Automatica dropped off the Used tour due to illness. So you all don't just jump the gun...no that isn't any lie or drug problem coverup...daryl pulumbo (lead singer of HA *and glassjaw*) has crohns disease....while touring with glassjaw they have had to cancel strings of dates and whole tours as he had to be hospitalized for such a shite curse of sense....

but yea check this fuckin band out if you haven't...to be honest i held off and held off and resisted temptations of wanting to listen to the tracks so i could see them live, and take their sound, and all that in at once...then they drop...and i goto www.headautomatica.com and check out the 4 songs they have on there...JESUS CHRIST!!!....it is fuckin amazing...

Head Automatica -- PleasePleasePlease (Young Hollywood)

You scream louder than fiction, and you get down on your knees
And tear open your heart so I can love you and your disease
Lick the hand that feeds you and kiss the blade that cuts
I wannna fuck you in your god's hands when your praying bites the dust

Please please please please please please please please, let me annointe the lust inside you
Please please please please please please please please, let me devalue what's inside you
Hollywood at night, hanging around. If this is a must, then dying is a must right now
Hollywood at night, hanging around. If this is a must, then dying is a must right now

And I'll deny you. Fact or fiction, fact or fiction, fact or fiction. It's a mission to survive.
And learn to want you, when I hate, when I hate what's all inside.

Please please please please please please please please, let me annointe the lust inside you
Please please please please please please please please, let me devalue what's inside you
Hollywood at night, hanging around. If this is a must, then dying is a must right now
Hollywood at night, hanging around. If this is a must, then dying is a must right now

You scream louder than fiction, and you get down on your knees
And tear open your heart so I can love you and your disease
You lick the hand that feeds you and kiss the blade that cuts
I wanna fuck you in your god's hands when your praying bites the dust

Please please please please please please please please, let me annointe the lust inside you
Please please please please please please please please, let me devalue what's inside you
Hollywood at night, hanging around. If this is a must, then dying is a must right now.
Hollywood at night, hanging around. If this is a must, then dying is a must right now.
Hollywood at night, hanging around. If this is a must, then dying is a must right now.
Hollywood at night, hanging around. If this is a must, then dying is a must right now.


That song is fuckin amazing...

josh
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Monday, October 25th, 2004

Subject:My Weekend...
Time:10:23 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
Well friday i got off work and traveled out to hubbard to do merch for my good friend metal mike and his band Oreon. That went well, saw some people from the cellar show were i also did merch. it was a good time, and it turns out i get to do it all again in cleveland on the 31st. So everyone come to peabody's on october 31st, and around 10 you get to see the mighty oreon rock your socks off!! (and talk to the coolest merch guy EVER...me) after the show I drove to pittsburgh and walked around in a walmart til d.brasco got back from the bleeding through show in erie. let me tell you...people look at kids in black zipup hoodies walking around at 1am listening to letter kills on headphones turned up way to loud very strange...but fuck them...they just are pissed cause they aren't rockin out to such a sweet band...after donnie got there we headed back to bobby mo uni and sat around eating pizza and bullshitting.

saturday we woke up and lounged a little...went over to burger king and giant eagle...only for me to find out that stores/gas stations/drivethrus don't sell beer in PA. you have to goto a beer distributor...fuckin weird...we got all ready and left for the Nintendo Fusion tour featuring the godlike welsh boys of thelostprophets (also featuring my chemical romance, story of the year, and anberlin). during MCR there was this asshole who was buckin kids in the pit and knockin them around and thinking he was hot shit...well he speared some kid, grabbed him and slammed him to the ground...ofcourse the kids that were right there just looked and did nothing so i ran over...grabbed the fuckass by his hoodie and literally threw him across the pit..from what donnie told me while i was helping the poor kid up the jackass got up like he was gonna do something, saw how big i was and got scared...which i think is funny...and then his friend started to run at me while my back was tunred and saw my size, trying to slam on the breaks and just kinda pushing me...they tried to act hard and i just gave them the finger and they left me the fuck alone...i guess later they were doing it again and some kid knocked the 'tough guy' out...and he stopped being a prick...

now onto the real show...

before the prophets went on i ran over to the side of the stage and mike saw me and saluted me, i laughed, and waved him over...he asked how i was doing and such...i asked if they would possibly play Handsome Life of Swing, and he laughed and said since they only have 40 mins they don't play that one...but next time around they would...went back to the floor and enjoyed the show...it was fuckin sweet...though i thought it was weird they didn't even play FSOP. the only thing they played off FSOP was Shinobi (ofcourse)...the set was short...well 40 mins isn't too short, but for a band like the fuckin prophets its far to short...after the set i sat down and took a much needed breather...i had on 2 shirts and a hoodie...all 3 of which were soaked with sweat...SOTY was alright...just like ever other time I have seen them...kicks...rolls...jumps...blah...

after the show we went out to promote and got a shit load of pics...67 total, and we went light...after the crowds were gone i was talking to donnie and 2 other kids and i noticed Ian (prophets singer) was standing a couple feet away...went over and said hello...he turned and started like a conversation with me...asked how i had been as of late...and what i had been up to...and all that sutff...told him how the 5th was my birthday and i was hoping for all of us to go have a beer or something along those lines...he said after the stage crew loaded up the semi they were taking off, and said sorry and actually looked like he felt bad...but he gave me a hug and was like happy birthday though...we were talking about some other shit and it was just like i was talking to someone i see everyday...they all truely remember me and know me...and it is amazing...i asked if there was an easier way to get in touch with them for guestlist shit cause george (their tour manager) never answers his phone or calls me back to let me know yea or nay...so he gives me his personal email address...he tells me it goes right to his phone and to just let him know a day or two before the show and i'd be on...any show they play...i am in...fuckin amazing...then some damn groupie girls came over and i let him do his thing...he laughed at the comments i was making...it was a good laugh at the expense of some really ditzy bias...i was talking to donnie and ian tapped me on the shoulder and was like alright man i am heading to the bus and i think we are leavin real soon...so i go to shake his hand and he gave me another hug...and i don't wanna come off like a fag or anything...but i am in love with this band...all the guys (and their techs and crew) are the coolest motherfuckers i have met in the industry...and it was just so awesome to be someone i have always wanted to be...where a band this big actually knows me...talks to me...like donnie said..what me and the prophets are is the best someone can be with a band since you don't see them everyday and such...and it made me feel real good about myself...and my first real moment where i had a run in with a band while they were playing was in Toledo on the off-ozzfest date 3 years ago...it was the used, apex theory, thelostprophets, and chevelle...i talked to ian before the show and he told me they were opening with Handsome Life of Swing...and i was upfront the whole show...and during one of the songs Ian comes over...kneels down in front of me...holds the mic to my mouth...lets me sing...and like brushes my hair around with his hand...and yea that may be kinda weird to some of you fucks...but not me...it was amazing...and one of the best memories in my head...and i told him about it while talking to him sat night and he laughed...and it rocked...

went back to booby mo uni and ate pizza and just bullshitted really...nothing was going on...i did get some girls number at the show that wanted me to come over to her house for some bonfire...and the girl was pretty cute...but her friend )that was gonna be for good ol' donnie) seemed to have a boyfriend...and he was gonna be there...and i didn't wanna have donnie be all like...dicked over...so we passed...went to bed and got some sleep on that shite couch...

woke up sunday and watch the first 3 quarters of the browns game...came home...did nothing...fixed up all the pics i got sat night...and sent those to the people that needed them...then i got to talk to mary (this girl from Island who is down at OSU)...she is fucking amazing...it was so cool talking to her...and she is an amazing girl, and a great person...and i am glad we started talking...i think i might make a little trip down there so we can hang out and such...she really fave me some advice and talked about some shit that i haven't had the chance to talk to anyone about...and it was really helpful...

so the outcome of the weekend was awesome...sold a decent amount of merch for oreon...got the gig this sunday...saw the prophets play one hell of a show (though they never play a shite show)...talked to ian for a bit...and got a direct connection to any lostprophets show anywhere...and then there is mary...

josh

ps - speaking of ashlee simpson...check out this link http://x.dirtytrain.com/rico/ashlee.simpsons.big.snl.fuck.up.mpg
i would have loved to see this live...i guess east coast got to see it live, and she just said it was her drummers fault cause he started playing the wrong song...though pieces of me was clearly playing through speakers and vocals started while her mic was in her hands by her waist...
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Monday, October 4th, 2004

Subject:so...3 hrs and 32 mins until my birthday...and...
Time:8:28 pm.
Mood: discontent.
i could not feel anymore depressed...

i am not sure what my problem is...but i just feel like shit...i got like 12 hrs of sleep last night and have felt good in that way all day...but something midday at work just slummed me down...

i am almost 21...and legal for all the drinking i could do...but i just feel really down...

Now that I...Face the world with pain inside
Strange but I...Can't understand the reasons why.
Forever is...A world that I cannot describe...That died the time we said goodnight.

It makes no difference, wrong or right...
The time has come to say goodnight.

And how could I...Be so sure but be so wrong?
And how could I...Have a will so weak with a mind so strong?
And only I...Can tell the difference right or wrong.

It makes no difference, wrong or right
The time has come to say goodnight...
It makes no difference, wrong or right
I guess it's best we say goodnight...

yea...who knows...i will just drink it all away tomorrow...and even though that solves nothing...i will pretend it does until weds...

and i am upset because i haven't talked to chrissy in a couple days...and after reading her journal i am all blah...cause i miss talking to her...and i wanna cheer her up...and i wanna make her laugh...and i love the way she understands all the stupid shit i say and do...and how she is just like me and weird...and goofy...and funny...and great...and yea...i am gonna stop that little blurb...

and whats funny is now that i said that stuff i am feeling a sense of relief...and maybe that was the problem...dfiweqf;ohifdn

josh

and for any of you bitches that wanna call and wish me a happy 21st birthday my cell is 330-701-9739

and all checks can be made payable to Josh Chandler...lol
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Saturday, October 2nd, 2004

Subject:Almost Birthday Time!!!
Time:3:21 am.
Mood: awake.
So October 5th marks 21 years that this world has been graced with my presence. I just wanted to let everyone know....

Twelve Tribes stuff is startng to get rollin so i am excited for that all to really get going full steam...

if anyone is interested feel free to join the community i made...though i only have like a small handful of friends...lol...i am a nobody...

http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=twelve_tribes/

peace--
josh

flava flav!
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Thursday, September 16th, 2004

Subject:vote bizzles...
Time:8:57 pm.
Mood: chipper.
just go here...say your fav sponsor was Sessions...and leave Oreon on the fav band...and then if you'd like to leave With Rescue Breathing you'd totally rock...but i understand if you support a friends band (who would work on warped)

it is just important to vote sessions and oreon...

https://secure.fanscape.com/sys/w-start.asp?band=WARPEDTOUR&sys=survey&ck=WARPEDTOUR35737917311656027053820031233A11A37ERDO12GNAMM6LQJA7X5EUH5TUV1FC3J2&pc=2331YXX

thanks a bundle...

josh

and i am really diggin this new chevelle song...the others i downloaded are pretty good...and i sampled the entire cd on their site and it sounds good...
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Wednesday, September 15th, 2004

Subject:you think they're selling you truth...truth is they're selling you out...
Time:11:34 pm.
Mood: awake.
so i updated my palm pilot with quite a list of shows coming up through the end of november...and boy...it's kind of overwhelming...i realize i am going to be attending 5 of the Taking Back Sunday//Funeral for a Friend shows (columbus, cleveland, detroit, indiana(pa), and pittsburgh)...i know you can point your finger at me and say obesesive FfaF fan...it kinda sucks as those shows kinda shite on some other shows I would like to hit up...but none the less...that is how it happens I guess...i am also debating whether or not to make a trip to cinci to see my boys in Letter Kills and thelostprophets on Nov. 11th...what do you all think...
november 3rd - columbus for the used
november 5th - columbus for tbs//ffaf
november 6th - cleveland for tbs//ffaf
november 7th - detroit for tbs//ffaf
novemeber 9th - indiana(pa) for tbs//ffaf
november 10th - cleveland for hotwatermusic//momentsingrace
november 11th - cinci for nintendo fusion (letter kills, story of the year, my chemical romance, and thelostprophets)
november 12th - pitts for tbs//ffaf

that is just shite driving...and after looking at my schedule and what i can do work wise i think i might have to scrap that idea for cinci...we'll see i suppose...

but yea...so i am just loaded...and i think i am going to find out if i can get on the guestlist for the deftones in cinci on october 21st...and if not then i am going to goto the nintendo fusion show in detroit that night...as of right now i think i am doing merch for metal on the 22nd, which is the prophets (fusion tour) in cleveland...and i am going to see them on the 23rd in pitts...but yea...that is only like 2 shows...and i miss those boys...who knows...fuck...

damn i just can't believe all these shows...from now until nov. 26th which is like 70 days...i have 24 for sure shows...that is just silly...damn...anyone wanna contribute to my fuel fund...gonna have to work some shit and make sure i have some extra loot for all this...the bonus is i am not paying for any of these shows...but gas is still there to blah...

me and d.brasco are still awaiting the email from #^@*% about the street team info and such...i got a good group starting so far on the community here...the myspace group isn't doing so well...i might need to enlist the champ of recruiting on myspace...you know who you are (and happy new year to you!)

yea...work still is...work...only one more day though til i get to have a nice 3 day weekend and work the gravity games...it will be a fun weekend...lots of kids...lots of shit to see...lots of kids to be turned onto great new music...

if anyone is interested in going saturday or sunday let me know as i may have extra tickets for both days...call me if you are interested... (330)701-9739... any cuties lookin for a hot handsome man to sweep you off your feet...don't call...but if you're lookin for one of the funniest fat kids then give me a ring...

josh
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Saturday, September 11th, 2004

Subject:oh yea...
Time:6:35 pm.
Mood: blah.
i just realized it was the big 9-11...

which is my mom and step dads anny...and that one thing happened too...

hope everyone who lost loved ones are keepin their headsup and stayin strong...

and id also like to wish everyone who has loved ones shipped out the best...i have a good friend over there and it never hit home til he got his orders...so may the power be with them and lets hope this will all be over soon...

josh
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Subject:blah blah blah
Time:6:26 pm.
Mood: chipper.
so my life has turned around for the best right now...i guess after a month of shit luck i should hope for atleast a couple days of good...so far it's been close to a week of good good news and luck...getting 200 from island to watch the gavity games for 3 days...meet tons of people...talk about music...see some killer xsports aswell...then myself and another lucky gent got the chance to run a bands entire streetteam...and they are signed...and they are on the rise...more to come on that as things unfold...i don't want to say too much before everything is off the ground and running...but i am sure you all know that as soon as i decide to share the name i will be on here blabbing away...i got my cell phone back from ashley...which was a good thing...now i just need the money she owes, which i am getting this coming week...and then it's done...which is a relief...i have finally gotten to the point where i am ready to move on...after a few 'experiences'(don't ask) i have decided i am actually over it to the point where i don't have to always sit around depressed and lonely...i have started talking to new people...making new friends...and enjoying my life...it is kinda refreshing that i am happy...and i honestly am...with myself...and happy for myself...this is like the first time in a while i have actually been happy and satisfied and it's not because of someone else...

well more to come soon...gotta get some things in order and ready for my big merch experience tomorrow...

josh
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Tuesday, September 7th, 2004

Subject:a quick update...
Time:5:17 pm.
Mood: hungry.
well the weekend was alright...worked...spent some time with my mom...found out my aunts supposed terminal cancer is gone...went fishing with the baller...

that's about it...

turns out i get to do some work for oreon on a couple of the upcoming shows...should be good times...get me some practice with the whole merch thing...yea...

josh
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Thursday, September 2nd, 2004

Subject:here i am...
Time:2:00 pm.
Mood:well i'm here.
in the library and for some reason having an urge to update my journal. it has been sometime since my last post, and alot has changed since then. the biggest update right now in my life is that i am more than likely going to be on the road with a capitol band this fall//winter. it has put me in a happy place, which was much needed. after my little 48 hr even with the warped tour in cinnci and columbus a couple weeks ago i had the urge to actually pick and prod to get myself a spot on any tour. jeff (my boss at capitol) told me he was happy i showed interest and that there were going to be some tours coming up for the fall and winter seasons, and that he'd keep me in mind since he now knew how interested i was in going out on the road. well he calls me monday afternoon asking how i was, seeing if i wanted some passes for the gravity games, and also thanked me for the email i sent regarding going on tour and thanking him for giving me a reason to stive on with everything. he also said there might be something coming up around the end of september, which ofcourse followed with me asking who. well capitol artist The Music is going on tour with Incubus. fuckin Incubus. that being my first real tour gig, christ that'd be amazing! sure i'd like something a little more, well small, and maybe with people i know (ie fuckups or steriogram) but why not start big?! so i guess i will cross my fingers and hope it goes through, but jeff said even if this doesn't happen there were going to be others in the coming months.

my life has been sort of fucked lately. i will be honest. i haven't been all that happy since ashley and i split up, and then she left me for my bestfriends brother. i guess that happens, and those are the curveballs life throws at ya sometimes. i have had some esteem boosters since then with some females but nothing to really get my head out of the river of depression. it just ended so blah, and friendship wasn't an option and i fully believe that no one can be friends with someone that they were once truely in love with. the only time that works is when those 'friendships' aren't even really friendships. its just the 2 people not officially dating, not seeing other people, going out without a title. i tried, it sucked, and i gave up. i am not ashamed, as i really did try, some may not agree as it only lasted maybe 2 days, but when the other person only has the guy she is currently fucking to talk about it kinda gets to you. it's rather funny as me and friends joked that something was going on between her and nick, and then look what happened...then i was joking that they were madly in love with each other, and ironic as it may seem, they are. as fuckin ridiculous as it all is i am starting to get over it. i still think back alot, and wonder how i could have done things to keep her around, but then i think to myself...and say...fuck it...life really is too short to let those things pester you and hold you down/back. i let that shit get to me so bad that i got suspended from work for 2 1/2 weeks...i almost got fired all because of me letting some bullshit fuck with my head too much. sure what happened was and still is fucked up, but nothing i feel, let alone say, is going to change that...so i might as well just chalk it and laugh about it, and when someone finds a reason to laugh, PLEASE let me know. the only thing that really makes me think about it is the past, and what she said to me. all those words she said to me, how she felt, i wonder if those were true feelings and words...if they were then how did she so easily drop me to the curb and move onto the next warm body to come along. i just don't see how you can be so in love with someone, say you want to marry them, then within a month of ditching them be in love with another person. maybe the last bit of our 'relationship' that love was gone. those feelings had subsided. ohwell...

monday my boys the fuckups were in town, and played a show at the grog shop. got up there when they were loading in and chilled with them for a bit. they played a damn good show, rocked to a crowd of 40-50 kids...and then loaded the trailer and we headed back to the hotel. got back there around 12, and the party time started...and didn't stop until 530...had my first..then second...then third...and maybe a fourth run in with a water bong, which was fuckin cool...yes i sound like a stoner right now but who cares...me travis and zach got real stoned, and had some real good times. some girls were in the other room and wanted us to come join them, but we decided to just hang out and laugh it up. it was real nice seeing the guys again and look forward to november 18th when they are back in cleveland. travis is a good guy, asked how things were with life (as he knew alot of details of my battle with the break up and such) and reassured me to call anytime i needed to talk...what a fella!

i finally added metal maya...female counterpart to my good friend metal mike...she's a sweetheart...invited me to go out with her and some girls last week...it was fun...i think the one girl was lightweight hitting on me...but i wasn't all that worried, yes that may be hard to believe...it was good times though...clubs are stupid but me and maya had our fun...i even used my uk accent to get the big guy to turn on the olympics on the big screen.

that's my life for now...still pressin on...still tryin to get by...and always rockin out...

josh
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Wednesday, May 12th, 2004

Subject:sweet love...
Time:11:54 pm.
you are mine...and i love that most about you...
your smile is so warm it melts me with ease...
how wonderful it is to hear i love you too...
what's better is i know it is from the heart...
and that's all i need to have happiness...
a love so sweet, not sour or tart...

that was really silly ridiculous...but alas we all have those moments sometimes in life...

in 2 mins it will be 6 days til punkin's birthday...i am soso excited...then school will be done with soon after...and then we have our summer of love, and fun, and happiness, and yea...i could go on...

stud
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Thursday, April 29th, 2004

Subject:Time of My fuckin Life...
Time:11:42 am.
Mood:amazinglywonderfulyetsad.
so island calls me a week or so ago and asked me to cover the portsmouth ohio campus invasion tour (hoobastank//LOSTPROPHETS//imarobot), i said sure so long as i didn't have to deal with the college bullshit where ppl think since the show is on their campus that they are gods gift to music...well then they asked if i could cover the show in oxford (miami of ohio) and i was like sure i will just make a road trip out of it...got lots of pins, hooba posters, lostprophets stuff from streetwise, and loads of other goodies...so i got my directions, worked things out at stricklands, and was on my way...

tuesday april 27th --

--OXFORD OHIO--

waited for my extra stickers and such from SW, left around 1 o'clock in the pm and was on my way to oxford ohio! about 3-4 hrs later got there, the prophets were soundchecking...waited til they were done, as i ofcourse had to stand//watch in amazement..the shite thing about this venue is it was some free show in this little 'park' as they called it...some shite stage, in a field that was maybe the size of half a football field (and that maybe a stretch)...wind was fuckin riDACulous which made it a real pain to put of the hoobaposters...got it done, got my pics kids ripped them right down...started to work the front of the barrier with the emails and free shite...turned out alright but due to it being a free show and outside it made it hell getting things organized and such...i got 9 full sheets, which was way under what i wanted, but given the circumstances i chalked it...talked to the guys and ian told me he was in love with the ice cream i took them back at their show in ashland (march 26th)...everyone really liked it (possible franchise in wales? :p) they told me about the radio show they were doing in cinnci, so they were packing up and leaving right after their set...talked to don (merch guy) and he said i was more than welcome to just follow the bus and he would just make sure i got in once we got there...to quote him he said he would tell the ppl "you need to be here"...real cool guy, and actually remembered my name and all...talked to dan (geetars//hooba) about the ice cream and he said some of it was good, mixed the strawberry,van,choc together and it was good...he said he thought they still had some left, joked and said ian was craving some so he could sell it to him black market price and the dick said 'why doesn't he just go over to coldstone'i was like we he wants good ice cream and he got all pissed and defensive and said he wasn't an ice cream conisour (i fucked it up, sure me) and i laughed and said well i have worked there 6 years so you develop a loyalty...told him i had a huge display board i wanted to get signed and he said he would do it, but not take it around and find the guys, though i never asked or implied that is what i wanted him to do as i have 2 legs...dick...prophets played a hellofashow, i will admit not as much movement as they normally would throwdown, but i knew that come cinnci they'd be balls to the wall...got lots of good pics (i will be making myself a site for all my show pics, will keep lj updated on that)...gear packed...bus loaded...off we go...

--CINCINATTI OHIO--

arrived at the venue, found myself a spot right out front, walked back to the bus and talked with the guys and we scoped out the venue...me and chipper (mike c//drumz) were talking for like 10-15 mins about the show prior and such...stu (bass) walked up and we talked for a second, turns out he fucked up his ribs a couple days ago and it is makin it hard to move and shit, which he said is really bummin him...said he was gonna go take a shit and i laughed and said maybe that'll help, he laughed and went to do his duty...THEN...THEN...fuckin lee gaze (my geetar idol, the man who is the reason for my lip piercing) walks up to me and was like whats up boss...throws his hand out, shakes my hand, and fuckin starts a convo with me...jesus christ that is fuckin awesome...talked to jamie (samples/keyboards/vocals) for a min then started to unload the trailer...band onstage had like 2-3 songs left so we had to bust ass...i was taking the geetars in and helping out kev (geetar tech) and such...really was fuckin awesome being onstage and looking at all those fuckin kids...just staring at you...incredible...we got all set up...i called punkin to tell her this amazingness and i was sitting talking to her and mike lewis (geetars) walks past me and looks down and say hello and such...then me and don went to find a spot to merch at...went to my car, got my camera and new batteries...and went backstage to watch the show...they were 110% tonight and it really showed...let me tell you the prophets put on one hellofafuckinshow...hands down 2nd best live show coming in right behind the deftones...just imagine watching it on the stage, holy shit, the energy just radiates off the guys..it is such an adrenaline rush...got lots of good pics there as well...after the show got a couple clipboards outta my car and some of the prophets stickers and decided to work the crowd a little...ended up filling up 7 sheets and i missed more than half the crowd...was real happy with that...went backstage and out the backdoor and there were some kids there and got some of them to sign up for the free prophets sticker...talked to don again, really thanked me for helping load the shit onstage and get setup...talked to stuy and asked how he was doing..said they were real bad, 'so that shit didn't help' he laughed and was like no, i wish...all the stragglers left so it was me, jamie, kerry (bus driver) and charlie (drum tech) outside the bus...we all were talking and shit and i guess it turns out ian's voice was hurtin, george (mgr) said 'ians voice is fucked'...and they needed to have a meeting to figure out if they'd goto portsmouth or rest up for top of the pops (big uk thing like dickclarke's bandstand if i understood right)..they got the drunk show promoter off the bus and had the meeting...i waited in the vizzan for the verdict...kerry came out and told me they were going to portsmouth...then george came over and talked to me...told me they were gonna go to portsmouth but not too sure if they'd play...so we set off to portsmouth and the wonderful ppl of southernohio...

--PORTSMOUTH OHIO--

arrived there around 4am, took forever to find the goddamn gym, but campus security finally showed and escorted us there...kerry parked the bus...i gave him a ride to the hotel he was staying at...then came back and got some shuteye myself...woke up around 10 thanks to load ass ppl who don't know how to keep their voices down outside..lol...talked to charlie and he said they prolly weren't playing but not to say anything, as george would let everyone know...so i went in and talked to tiffany (head of capus activities) and she showed me around...talked to don, kev, charlie, and bobby (some head tech for mtv)...decided to get my shit up now so i didn't have to worry about it later...did a wicked display in the center of the barrier...then used these 1/4 page flyers to write out hooastank across the bottom of the center display...as i was doing it dan walks by and instead of saying, man you rock that's sweet...thanks alot...he says 'you're gonna be here for a while'...what a fuckin dick...if it weren't for kids they would be shit...and if i didn't do shit like that and pass out shit at other shows and promo them and their new cd and even their s/t one...where would they be...fuck him...finished all my posters and stuff and decided i was gonna write something about the prophets in the 2 spaces i left open on the front barrier...talked to george, asking if i should maybe wait..and he laughed and said yea it would prolly be best to wait...decided i would write "lostprophets r skill" on one side and "For Us For Them For You" on the other...he was diggin the idea...well the verdict came down...prophets weren't playing...so they were gettin ready to load the trailer back up and i was walkin past and charlie stops me and asked me if i got any sticks yet...no...asked if i wanted used or new...didn't matter...gave me 4 new signature sticks...fuckin amazing...was back inside getting the free lunch when chris (drums/hooba) walked up...asked him about the ice cream...said oh yea, and that it was good...said he was losing his voice so he couldn't really talk...i said cool cool...see ya around...he left...so earlier in the day i talked to billy (mgr/hooba) about having them sign like 10 posters for a giveaway having to do with the email list signups...he said alright...gave him the posters and went about my biz...don was gettin rdy to head back to cleveland and such...had his rental car loaded up with the merch and all that fun stuff...he was gettin rdy to leave...went over to the car and said bye, and that i would prolly hit up the huey lewis show in cleveland to see him (he is doing merch that tour)...he said cool...come up early, he'd get me in...then he gave me his mtv laminate, my first one ever...he handed it to me and was like here now noone can say shit to you...worked the line...ppl from portsmouth really proved the whole southern = hick = stupid as shite theory correct...never really met anyone like these ppl, it was rather a culture shock...like they weren't getting some of my jokes and humor (you know how i am) and just lookin at me all dumbfounded...alas got rid of everything i had, threw out buttons like a parade...stickers the same...went back out to the van to get more stuff for inside and there were 2 drumheads in a box that seemed to be trash...i asked charlie if they were up for grabs...he reached in...banged them off and handed them to me...fuckin awesome...went inside and got something setup at the merch table with scott(merch guy/hooba)...we had talked earlier and he said no worries...i could setup with him and do my shit there...watched the local opener who turned out to be a cover band...blah...then i went outside to see the guys off...earlier i had walked to a local drugstore and got them a card to say thanks for everything and being so fuckin cool with me and such...i went over to talk to billy first and asked about those posters, which ofcoruse were not signed yet...and then he said i had to talk to brenden (mtv tour mgr) about announcing the names onstage before they went on...so i found brenden and he ofcourse says no, and i am ohso glad when i told billy about this earlier he metnioned to me to clear it all with brenden...fuckin assholes...so i ofcourse am all pissed about this and then realize time is drawing near where i will have to say goodbye with my newly made welsh friends...if you weren't aware i am quite the emotional lil' bitch to put it bluntly...so i ofcourse start to cry...and then i talk to chipper all crying and shit...he was all like what the hell is wrong man...and laughed when i told him and was like we'll be back man no worries...and i was just all...hoobastank fuckin sucks compared to you guys and they are all just dicks...and chris was over talking to jamie and he looks at chris and says yeah, that guy is a dick...and i laugh...and then i told him how some dumbgroupieblondebitches asked why the prophets weren't playing and they were all like they are pussies...and dan is like they can't play 2 shows in a row...blah blah blah...and mike was laughed and said well, they're just jealous...it was nice...he told me to cheer up and we'd hook back up in july when they do their us tour and such...after all the gents were on the bus i stepped foot on my first tour bus ever...it was awesome, especially given the circumstances...talked to mike lewis and jamie and handed them the card and mike was like...wow, thanks alot...and i was like i just really appriciate how cool you all are and down to earth...and i was like...you guys are so much better than hoobastank and they are just fuckin dicks...and they both laughed and said yea...they both shook my hand and said they really appriciated everything, it was cool...then i stopped and talked to kev before i got of, told him i got them all a card and he said 'brilliant' and that it was real nice of me to do that...and then thanked me for helping last night in cinci when they were pressed and such...say my goodbyes to everyone else...talked to george about who to send my emails to at sony...and then said my last goodbye to kerry...he thanked me for the ride and such last night...and then...they were gone...makes me sad to think of it...went inside got my box of shit...took it out to my car...and then went back inside and down to the dressing rooms...since the prophets were gone i was just lookin around and such...and got 2 12packs of dr.pepper and some bottles of water for the drive home...plus some sweet ass hair shit from australia...lol...loaded up and set sail on concrete waves...

to sum it up...i will no longer be doing an promo work regarding hoobastank...no sticker...merching...nothing...and to be honest the only reason i would hit up a show is 2 reasons...a good opener...and to see scott...

this was the time of my life...nothing really compares to the rush and the adventures i had over those 48 hrs...it was really fuckin amazing...and i can't wait to see them in july...i might actually hit up their last us show before they are off to uk to open for metallica and slipknot...which i am sure is gonna be fuckin wild...the last show is
SUN 23rd WASHINGTON, DC – WHFS Festival
more than likely gonna go...though that is the day after prom so not sure if we have other plans...maybe that could be the afterprom fun?lol

i know what metal means now when he says he misses being on tour...i was only on for 2 days and look at the fun and shit i had...just imagine a whole tour...god...

stud/josh
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Wednesday, April 14th, 2004

Subject:lettermotherfuckinkills...vinyl collection...love...
Time:11:41 am.
Mood:GGRRREEEAAATT!!.
so the letterkills // sugarcult show and letterkills // story of the year show were both fuckin great...letterkills is one amazing band...they really are just plain badass...fuckin nice guys too, always talking to ya and chillin...i met some good ppl at both shows...some guys in local bands to try and hook up with my boy metal and oreon...also met jesse the universal music rep for this area (i guess 4 states total)...she is awesome and totally gave me props on what i have been doing and had heard about me and seen my work and was real stoked to meet me finally...i also realized my man at the agora is in the sign-offs, who i have heard much about...so that was fuckin killer...he's awesome and one cool motherfucker...

i am starting to collect vinyl now...i got 2 pieces in my collection as i post this...the first was a mightymightybosstones double vinyl release that island sent me...my 2nd is the ltd ed. 7" Last Train Home vinyl by my boys in the lostprophets!!! i am going to say that is my first though...cause it is alot cooler then the other...lol...

love...ashley...punkin...4ever...and ever...she is amazing...she got accepted everywhere she applied...she made/makes me so proud...she is doing it, she really is...and no one can stop her now...she is gonna prove them all wrong....fuck the neysayers cause they don't mean a thing!!!

josh//stud

"the clock is down and i am losing one day at a time...well who'd have thought our hands would stop right here..."
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Friday, April 9th, 2004

Subject:so yea..
Time:1:38 pm.
Mood:yaknow.
it's been a while since a real update i suppose...

life's been great/grand/wonderful...all aspects are pretty good and going well...

ashley and i are doing great to say the least...we have just been growing more and more close with every minute that goes by...

work with the labels is taking off as spring/summer approaches...

yea...so maybe this wasn't a real entry...but fuckoff

me
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Monday, April 5th, 2004

Subject:blahblahblah
Time:11:18 pm.
Mood: anxious.
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The quality that most appeals to you:Loyalty
In a survival situation, you:Run like hell
Your hidden talent is:Courage
Your gift is:Vast knowledge
In groups, you:Are the center of attention
Your best quality is:Your inclusiveness
Your weakness is:Your laziness
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Tuesday, February 24th, 2004

Subject:well well well
Time:11:17 pm.
Mood: anxious.
got back into ohio from cali tonight...it's cold...though thanks to punkin i am nice a warm hearted, which is spreading throughout my body...

the flights were fine...though it is 1120 now and i am still on cali time so my body thinks it is 820...tsk tsk

tomorrow i get to see my punkin and boy oh boy i couldn't be more excited...i was kinda blah when i got off the plane and got home...mainly cause i realized that i was in ohio...and in akron...and i wasn't with ashley...

but after talking to her and setting plans for tomorrow night i am doing better...off to unpack a little and do some other things...

iloveyou
stud
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Tuesday, February 10th, 2004

Subject:seen it all i've seen and i still kill...
Time:10:59 pm.
Mood: tired.
so we passed the health inspection today...and yes i should be excited but it would have been nice to have a couple extra days off not having to do jackshit and maybe get to see LA...tomorrow is going to be a loooonngg ass day...as we are waking up at 7 and will be training kids til 10pm...so looks like there will be no fun tomorrow...and also that means i am not sure when i will get to talk to punkin...which makes me sad...i was kinda happy to find out that i was actually leaving tuesday the 24th not weds the 25th like i had expected...so that means i will get to see my punkin 1 day sooner...

that's all for now...i am poop'd after a nice long soak in the hot tub...off to bed i go...

iloveyou
stud
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